by Mungman » Mon Dec 05, 2005 1:41 am
Im drunk. Im so drunk I dont have the ability to lie to this body of people who continue to pluck from their minds the thoughts sometimes better left unsaid. Read it, regurgitate it, burn it but I hope you listen to it. I loved once and lost and never realy antied up again. Its been about 5 years since then, when I couldnt give up on a dream to have what I once wanted. In between then there has been nothing at all which caused my heart to pang or stutter. There has been no face, no eyes, no body divine to drive into me the feelings of love. I saw such an angelic being when I looked up from a bottle about 3 months ago. I told a few people she was pretty and up until a week ago had not let the dream run wild. Tonight I tried my hardest and got the bad news from a friend.NO VACANCY in heaven and the angel was too busy for sad, sorry, west coast kids. When you see that train come down a track of life with nothing between you but pain and steel dont jump to see what it is...just let it hit you and know you never waited too long to let yourself get healed or get hurt. Im drunk and god knows what Ill say in the morning but dont let sobriety keep you in the dark of your own logical mind.
"Wish in one hand. Shit in the other. See which hand fills up first." -God to me